So this the first blog that I'm actually writing and intending to post in a blog, I have posted a few on myspace but they were just short ones and didn’t really mean much. In this one I intend to dumb my mind into it, maybe not in this one but in some in the coming time.
In the past year I feel like I have changed a lot. Mostly just from starting high school. The entire school year went so incredibly fast and summer will be over before I know it. I don’t want to go back that soon. Right up until the very end I didn’t really want it to be over just because I thought I would miss everyone so much and then the last week of school was really bad and I was glad it was summer. My summer started out really bad though my uncle that I was really close to died about a week after school was out. I was really close to him too. So then after that I spent a few weeks cleaning out his apartment and going through all his stuff and everything. And I also started out the summer being single after breaking up with my boyfriend the day b4 finals, fun right? I made a lot of stupid choices and learned from them. I feel like I changed person but I don’t know what the person is yet. I don’t know who I am anymore, I changed so much. I lost a few people through the school year that meant a lot to me. I wish I could go back to the way some things were and then others not. I miss a lot of people but I don’t think they miss me which is the hardest part of it all. " the most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained." this has happened to me to many times. Today I was at a wedding for someone I grew up with, she is older than me obviously but I remember when we were all really young and she’s married now. I hate growing up, I'm afraid of it. Some of my senior friends are leaving the state soon and I will most likely never see them again, its really sad. And next years class, when they graduate its going to be really sad, I have a lot of friends in that class. Anyway…. In done complying for now because my dad told me to go to bed.. Its only 10:30 pshh!! Anyways this is a really bad blog bye.
